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“OYBEGIM MENING” QALBDAN CHIQQAN SO’ZLAR
Nusratova Sevinch Shukurali qizi
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Toshkent Amaliy Fanlar Universiteti, Toshkent, 100149, O‘zbekiston Respublikasi.
Maxfuza Safarboy qizi
Toshkent Amaliy Fanlar Universiteti, Toshkent, 100149, O‘zbekiston Respublikasi.
https://doi.org/10.5281/zenodo.15620157
Abstract. This work is an elegant expression of the suffering and expression of love in the
heart. The words in this work are a work that clearly conveys the love in the heart, deep
suffering, losses and the love and inner feelings of a woman. In the person of "Oybegim", it is a
story told with trembling of hearts that were once close but became distant due to the blows of
fate. The work occupies a special place in Uzbek literature as one of the painful love and
memory epics written with the gaze, heart, and love of a wonderful woman.
Keywords: A woman's gaze, love, kindness, love, loyalty, memory, suffering, loss, pain,
mental state, loyalty.
About Zarifa Saidnosirova
Zarifa Saidnosirova is a famous Uzbek chemist, teacher and scientist who also left a
significant mark in the field of literature. Although she was not known as a poet, she played an
important role in preserving and promoting literary heritage. Zarifa Saidnosirova was the wife of
the Uzbek writer Oybek. She actively participated in preserving and preparing for publication
Oybek's literary heritage. Zarifa Saidnosirova wrote a memoir called "Oybegim mening", in
which she talks about her life with Oybek and his literary work. This work is not only
biographical, but also educational in nature
.
Excerpt from the work
Zarifa Saidnosirova's work "Oybegim mening" sincerely reflects the meaningful life, love
and devotion she spent with her husband Oybek. In the work, we can learn about the boundless
love of Oybek for his wife in one of the letters written by the poet. This quatrain clearly reveals
his love for his wife. The letter said: To my beloved Zarifa, the closest companion of my heart!
Don't expect a life of luxury and decoration from me,
Oh my beauty, I am a great fool.
The universe is a great void without you,
Don't forget, don't be sad, don't cry, little girl!
If we analyze the above four lines, the poet reveals his inner thoughts to his beloved in
the lines. This passage is about the poet's deep feelings, love and suffering. He says that he does
not expect material wealth, a luxurious life or external beauty from his beloved. In the third and
fourth lines, he says that life without love is empty and meaningless, but nevertheless he expects
only love, understanding and tears from his beloved, but joy. The poet says that he stands before
love with a simple, sincere, loving and innocent heart. He loves sincerely and explains that this
love is not about money or appearance, but about the heart. He only wants the beloved to be
sincere, not to forget and to cherish his love.After reading the work, the sentences that came to
my mind really made me think. When a woman's love and loyalty are so great. Her love for her
husband did not leave him even when he was in trouble, but on the contrary, she stayed by his
side, encouraged him, and gave him confidence. Even when Oybek was attacked by his enemies
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and found himself in a difficult situation, his wife did not leave him. She served him with loyalty
and devotion. As Oybek's wife, Zarifa Saidnosirova was the only person close to him who
understood his mental state, inner feelings, and expected his mood. Another aspect of the work is
the harmonious combination of historical, personal memories and art. This clearly reveals the
work not only as art, but also as a historical work. It is no exaggeration to say that the work
"Oybegim Mening" is considered the most delicate work that came from a woman's heart, and it
is a work that clearly proves the loyalty of inner feelings that almost no one else in Uzbek
literature has revealed.
We can see that the feelings and experiences experienced in the work
belong to a single woman. The main idea of the work is the loyalty, kindness, and trust of a
person to each other, and these qualities are clearly depicted in the poet's wife. Throughout the
work, many incidents highlight the patience, silence, selflessness, and sometimes invisible,
unknowable power of a woman. Oybek, described by Zarifa Saidnosirova, was a human being
before becoming a great person. In the work, a woman is depicted as a holy woman who does
not live in the shadow of her husband, but rather gives meaning to his shadow and heart. It is no
exaggeration to say that this work makes a fundamental difference in the views on Uzbek
women. It is no exaggeration to say that the work "Oybegim Mening" is an epic that reveals the
experiences of this person. In the work, Zarifa Saidnosirova calls her husband "Oybek, my
husband" even after losing him, which indicates not the simplicity of this love, but the spiritual
constancy. In the work, the image of Oybek is revealed not as an ideal, but as a person brought
closer to reality. When Zarifa Saidnosirova remembers her husband, she refrains from praising
him. She also emphasizes the times when she felt depressed and made mistakes during the
difficult days of her life, which is a clear example of how she presents Oybek as a real person,
not a myth.
Conclusion
After reading the work “Oybegim Mening”, I was impressed by the human qualities and
family relationships of the great poet and writer Oybek, who left a deep mark on Uzbek literature
and spiritual life. This memoir written by Zarifa Saidnosirova attracted me so much that the
work reveals not only memories of a writer, but also truly human feelings about self-sacrifice
and loyalty. The work deeply expresses Oybek’s hard work, simplicity, love for the homeland,
and activity in social life. The author, as his wife, reveals that Oybek is a kind and passionate
person through simple but touching events in family life. It would not be an exaggeration to say
that “Oybegim Mening” is an invaluable work that educates the younger generation in the spirit
of loyalty, love, humility, and self-sacrifice. This work made me think deeply and once again I
felt how important it is to preserve our national heritage. A person who reads the work does not
just experience a fragment of the life of a famous poet, but also feels the spiritual experiences of
a woman with a complex inner world and worldview - Zarifa Saidnosirova. She does not hide
herself, nor does she express her inner pain in noisy words, but lives with inner strength and
devotion in every line. The work "Oybegim Mening" is not only a love memoir, but also a
historical memoir. This work, written from a woman's perspective, reflects the psyche of an
entire nation. Zarifa Saidnosirova writes about her time, her pain, and even her fate through
Oybek, because even Zarifa's silence sounds like a word. In the history of literature, many great
male figures have shone with their creativity, their names are mentioned again and again in
textbooks, statues, and memorial evenings. But the lives of the women who stood behind them,
who supported them in silence, selflessness, and love, often remain in the shadows. Zarifa
Saidnosirova's work "Oybegim mening" brings this shadowy life to light. This book is not only
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about Oybek, but also about the love, kindness, endurance, and patience that Oybek made him.
Today, as we read "Oybegim mening", we see the female courage, patience, love, and
selflessness behind the male heroes in literature. This work is not just a life portrait - it is an
inner history written about invisible forces. In the work, we can clearly see their endless loyalty
to each other. As we continue to read the work, we also live in this fantasy world, seeing two
hearts loyal to each other in any situation. This work is very calm and meaningful, and it is a
work that clearly reveals the expression of love in the present and the past. It is not for nothing
that it is said that behind every strong man there is a woman, and we can see that this is also
clearly demonstrated in the work.
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